Think the thoughts, feel the feels...write it down

I have to be honest, I've been struggling with doubt lately.   I KNOW that the Lord has called me to Buenos Aires, Argentina as a STINTer post graduation, but I often feel so discouraged to the point of doubting whether or not I'm to go.  I then feel scared and ashamed; scared because for those instances I really doubt that I ever heard God call me to Argentina, and ashamed because I'm being prideful by worrying about how I'll look/feel if I don't go.  Then I feel remorse for doubting God's sovereign plan.  Ministry Partner Development (aka MPD, aka support raising) is uniquely one of the hardest things I've ever done.  This is all very new for me, and while I'm raising support for something I've felt called to for most of my life, I still feel the weight of doubt.  That's really scary and frustrating for me. This point in my life reminds me of Matthew 14:22-33, when Peter walks on the water.  Peter said "Lord, if it is You, command me to...

Hi all!  Here's a link to a blog posting from one of my teammates in Buenos Aires, Argentina. http://web.me.com/tiffmholl/Site/Blog/Entries/2010/10/13_Vida_Estudiantil.html Here's how to give! http://give.ccci.org/give/View/0632929

Sooo...first of all: sorry for not updating.  Second of all this post is a long time coming. Psalm 56: Be gracious to me, O God, for man tramples on me all day long an attacker oppresses me; my enemies trample on me all day long, for many attack me proudly.  When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.  In God I trust; I shall not be afraid.  What can flesh do to me?  All day long they injure my cause; all their thoughts are against me for evil.  They stir up strife, they lurk; they watch my steps, as they have waited for my life.  For their crime will they escape?  In wrath cast down the peoples, oh God!  You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle.  Are they not in your book?  Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call.  This I know that God is for me.  In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I shall not be afraid.  What can man do to me?  I mu...